I know i miss you,
But what can i do?
I see you everywhere,
Hear your voice in my head.
Oh! So foolish i am,
To miss you everyday.
From the dusk to dawn,
You control my mind.
Will you stop and let me be fine?
It has been a long time since we’ve met.
My circumstances barricade me from meeting you.
I wish I could see you everyday,
Talk to you for hours and not get bored.
I forgot to smile the way i used to, they say.
I tell them they don’t know what it feels like to be here with flashbacks in my head.
My mind is so messed up,
Talking to you has become an addiction.
I switched all my social sites off so i don’t get distracted,
But we talked on mail as i was attracted,
Attracted to the addiction which is like a drug to me and is hard to leave.
You’re the dose i need,
To keep myself optimistic in what so ever situation i am in.
That’s why i love you,
That’s why i miss you.
How weird this night is, I wonder. I
can’t sleep because of all the chaos in my head..thinking about those people who love me, hate me and most of all about what i should’ve said. What a regretful life i am living in a place where, for people a “piece of cake” is more important than the “peace of nation” . 😂
I feel like drowning in the deep ocean of thoughts at night, all the memories come in front as if i am dying. And yes, we do die at night. Each morning is not only a new day, but a new life. Still, we are not thankful enough to the almighty. Rather stressed about our lives. what a selfish act, isn’t it?
You never know if you’re gonna make it until tomorrow. So, why not make your days worth watching as a flashback at night?
I wonder if these flashbacks are miserable or we are?
Flashbacks are of so many kinds, every person has a different one. That moment they cherish forever in their minds. 😄
I wish people knew the importance of each day.
I would just like to say..
People will come in your life, leave, ignore and hurt you.
You got to choose, who is the one worth the pain.
Because that person will book a place in your heart.
They say “Smile, because you can”
But do they smile?
We here, in a population of approximately 7 billion people and 14 billion faces are confused.
Confused about the difference between
Living and existing.
Smile and make it all worthwhile is all i want to say. 😁
I may not be perfect,
but i am not like anyone else,
I may not show my scar,
but it has already left its mark,
I may not be the rainbow,
neither am i the rainy storm,
I am a simple being,
trying to stand out of the crowd.
As i grow older and wiser,
the world teaches me to grow strong with all i have,
with all i have, I will make it worth it,
not today but tomorrow,
I will see where the fate takes me,
and will turn back and run away as fast as i can,
because my friend,
I am not what I will be
after a year or so, I will change.
The change will leave me alone,
as I will work on my own.
No friends will I have, nor family support.
I will stand on my own,
and will die the same.
I cannot challenge death,
neither can anyone else.
No matter how strong i get.
I will make sure the world knows my name
and that hard work of mine will,
pay off at the end.
I’m sure many of us do think about this question in one or the other time in their lives that who are they? But like most of us, we just tell our name, age, gender etc. As our answer to this particular question. Is it so? Hell yes!
But if one thinks deep about it they’ll find out who they are and get they are. But my friend, the problem is that we ourselves have no idea who we are. We are humans they say, but do they act like one? The simple answer to the question “who am i?” is that we are the universe, the sky, the moon, the sun, the wind, the thunderstorm, the earth, the environment, the tsunami, the waves, the river, the rock, the sand and what not, my friend! What not?
We are simple but complex.
We are high but low at the same time.
We are flying but in an airplane.
We are dust but together a tornado.
We are precious (as diamond) yet found in coal.
We are humans yet monsters.
Most of all, we are unsatisfied.
Unsatisfied after all that we have,
For a man with a bike, is unsatisfied as he wants a car.
For a man with a car wants a better car, maybe the best.
For a man with the best car wants a villa.
For a man with both wants to live in peace but still stressed out of his work.
No one here is satisfied.
I don’t know, when will one ever be.
I see poor children being more happy than us who have everything we need by the grace of Allah.
A man once said,
I can buy everything but still i am poor.
Simply means that a man has everything, he can buy all those diamonds out there. But what he lacks is the love he can never buy, the emotions he can never buy.
Now have you got the answer of “who am i?”
Neither do i.
This date is an unforgettable one for me.
My very own best friend, Malahat (unique name isn’t it?) 😉 had her last day in school today, what can i say?
I am out of words..she was the reason behind my smile in school. I always loved her shitty talks though she always made fun of me and pulled my leg 😂 i did the same to that creature too, in my way.
I will never ever forget that person.
It’s been 2 years since we’ve become great pals and that day when i watched her leave, broke me down to nothing but tears. Today in school i cried the most, hiding from her though as she had her chemistry practical so she was busy in laboratory. And i was busy cleaning my eyes by tears. Well, as it was her last day, i tried to give her a surprise..i thought a frame would be good. It was morning at 7:35 a.m or so, i ran with her in her own class which i decorated with my class pals (Aafiya and Aashna) it was a day full of happiness and pain. Decorating her class was not a huge success as the balloons bursted i don’t know how, the next morning.
When Malahat came to her class, she was so surprised and i just remember that time everyday and feel so happy as she had that glare in her eyes which was unforgettable, it was something i never really saw in 2 years i must say! I still remember everyone elses mouth wide open after watching my gift for her. 😂
I never did such a thing for anyone because no one ever made me feel that special. She was different, still is.
She had something in her that made me her best friend. Her humour, her intelligence and most importantly how she understood me. 😁
A smart being she is, undoubtedly.
As the days passed, i became sadder.
Today it is 17.02.2015 and still i don’t feel like going school tomorrow.
I miss her at school the most. Everywhere i go, i see the flashbacks coming in front of my eyes. Those walks around the whole school when we came so early, the chart paper vs. art file fights we had (i always won) etc.
There were infinite moments which i can’t describe.
Now Malahat is pursuing her career in teaching and i’m sure she’s gonna be the best teacher ever. A jackass teacher too! 😂 well, i never complement her and that’s one of the 14673 reasons i am her best friend.
Love you mate, if you’re reading this. (if not, still
i love you ) 😂😎
But i don’t think you’ll ever read this one.
I mean, come on i am never gonna tell you such stuff. 😂
Thank you! For each and everyone who gave there time in reading this.
I wish our friendship stays the same forever my dumbass friend. 😊